Ever sit back and wonder...

What am I doing with my life?

Ever sit back and tell yourself

Stop thinking of such thoughts when you know there's no answer for them. 

Ever wonder what it would be like to have a life full of purpose? A life where you never have to ask yourself.

Am I doing enough? Am I truly being the person I want to be. The person God made me to be?

So here it is... I've been thinking a lot lately about the meaning of life. the meaning of love. The purpose of life and love. The reason we exist. I guess as I sit here currently typing this up I feel pretty stupid. Because my next words were going to be, there is no answer for such questions and I need to stop feeling like an answer needs to be found. Well here's the thing. There is an answer. Do I know fully what it is??? No. not at all. But I will tell you one thing I know where to find it. God gave us the answers in his Book. Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth. (for those of you that missed it... The Bible) Yes I'm right, I need to stop focusing on the reason, the meanings. I need to remember that isn't the most important thing to be focusing on right now. But then that leads me to ask...

Why not? What is the most important thing I should be focusing on. What could be more important then solving the question of life, love and purpose? What else is there?

Well maybe the problem isn't in the question. Maybe the problem of my focus needs to be less meaning and more purpose. cause honestly what does love mean? somehow the idea of love and life as a noun absolutely boggles my mind. It doesn't make sense. How can you comprehend the true existence of something that simply is. How can you comprehend life and love. Perhaps we should look at it less as a noun and more of a verb. What does it mean as a verb? It becomes an action. Love would then become the action of loving. Being so filled with love that nothing else matters. Only Love. can you imagine and endless action of Love? Because thats what I picture when I think of love as a verb. Something that never stops. sure I guess love can stop. But then was it truly love in the first place if it can stop? Now what about life? in ancient times a person lived in order to be remembered. Names were passed on through the family because they believed they could preserve their life, by preserving the name. What is a name? Could it be that life could be defined through what is? A name doesn't mean a whole lot. Perhaps we could go and classify it as a verb as well rather than a noun... But lets not go too in depth with that... I'll be up all night and never get anywhere... So if life, can be preserved through the passing on of a name, could it then be considered a legacy? Not simply the breath inside of you. But it becomes more than that. It becomes what you are. What people see of you. What people see in you. What gets left behind. Probably one of my favourite songs is Legacy by Nichole Nordeman.

I want to leave a legacy 
How will they remember me? 
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough 
To make a mark on things? 
I want to leave an offering 
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically 
And leave that kind of legacy

So if life is the action of leaving something behind. And love is the continuous action of giving and recieving love. (Right now I'm honestly imagining something more like fire just burning continuously... Something like a blizzard with snow flying without an end... You insert your vision...) maybe the purpose in life is to leave love. How incredible could all that be? If you want to live forever... What could be better than leaving behind an endless legacy of love. Maybe I haven't answered what any of my original questions... But if you want better answers... Don't ask me, because you know I'm still learning. All of what you read, I thought of it while I was typing. But if you want real answers. Ask the one who gave the questions. He left behind a book for us to read in order to answer the questions. He is love. He is life. He is.... You know it's cool how when asked who He was, all he said was

I Am

Kinda leaves it wide open... Like something that never ends... Kinda like my new idea of love, or even life. He leaves it open so that it never has to end.

Love is..... 
Life is.....
God is..... 

Things I've learned from my parents...

Dad
- Always keep pickle lovers near when you order a burger.
- Even though you may not want to... It's a nice thing to share your most precious Kit Kat with someone you love.
- Sometimes Trigonometry doesn't make sense until you need to build a house.
- If you're going to do something, Make sure you do it right. 
- And sometimes life isn't about making lots of money, or doing favours for rewards. It's about Showing people you care about them in the ways that you can.

Mom
- Life's too short to worry about being graceful... Make sure you wear shorts under skirts, at all times!!!
- When your car breaks down in the middle of no where... Sometimes it helps to pop the hood and look helpless.
- When you get bored... Math puzzles always help to pass the time :)
- When the neighbors across the street are being super loud and obnoxious... Prayer really does work.
- Sometimes people don't need to be judged, they just need to be loved.