Guys, I just want to encourage all of you reading this, Go to counseling. Like I'm not saying you're all crazy :P I'm just saying, I went in for counseling the other week and I think it was pretty good. Counseling isn't for crazy people. Thats psychiatry. (ok, also not always just crazy people, but larger problems than counseling) If you're having a hard time, I would suggest a counselor. A good one won't tell you what to do, if they do tell you what to do, you should probably find a new one. Just sayin, but a good counselor will help you find the answer in yourself. They've been trained to help you search for the truth. Warning, a super good counselor will pick up a lot of unspoken things. And you might start talking about deep issues you didn't even know you had. That's not a bad thing guys! But I need to put a disclaimer, if you're going to counseling and you feel like they ruined your life after 1 session... you need to go back!!! the first session doesn't heal, it finds problems that need to be worked on. So often, you'll leave feeling worse. But if you go back, guys you can find so much healing. anyways, thats my rant for the evening encouraging people to support my future vocation ;) God Bless