Merry Christmas!
Well my next post has been on the to-do list for a few months, but lets be real we all knew it wasn't going to last when I said it's going to last.
For anyone who's looking back though I guess I'll catch you up on the past few months... after my last blog post I spent a month driving through BC & Alberta to catch a few friends and family before making my way North. Finally arrived in Whitehorse and everything seemed to fall into place, drove in Thursday night, spent Friday & Saturday with some lovely church members, by Sunday I moved into a house, by Tuesday I had a job, and by Wednesday I started work.
I think it's taken me so long to post because this blog is supposed to be my safe place to be vulnerable and speak in public about what's going on in my life... my last post I said goodbye to a really great group of people, I spent 6 months being vulnerable with people who had my back.
Today it's been Christmas, I had the whole day to just relax and enjoy my time with Bailey. Don't worry I had lots of invites, but after working the Christmas season at a Toy store all I wanted to do was stay in my PJs and go for a walk down to the river. I got Merry Christmas' from all over North America, and it's been a really great day.
I guess the one thing I feel like I've lost right now is my relationship with the 1 person that means everything to me. I think all that vulnerability earlier in the year made it really hard for me to be vulnerable with Jesus... I lost my classmates, I lost support systems... maybe part of me is afraid of losing Him to... which at the end of the day is Crazy... He's been my best friend since Day 1. You can read stories on this blog about all the times He's reminded me that there is nothing I can do or say that will make Him walk away... and yet... I still walk away and shut him out.
Today's been a really really great day. But it's also been kind of tough... I stayed up way too late so my overthinking brain is working over time without enough sleep. But I've been missing my best friend. Realizing this season while we remember the gift of His birth on this Earth... I need to return to the manger, return to His side...
Fear not, For I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
