Ok... So I guess tonight I'm in another thought filled, (don't feel like putting the computer down to sleep...) moods... More I think I just had a friend try to find this blog... (I haven't really told anyone I  know about it... till tonight... I haven't even told her the link ;) ) and so I looked through to see if there was a post I would be more sketchy about letting her see... Not cause I've really got anything to hide... but what if I forgot that one thing... about that one time... that I don't want her, or my friends seeing whats truly behind the face they see each day kind of posts... wow... I could totally do another post on that... hmm... maybe someday I will...  but back to my point...

I ran across my first blog... and in it I said I would share some dreams, that can't be completed on my own... Well here's what I want to tell you... Right now (in my last blog) I told you about that school I'm at right now... I'm visiting cause thats what I want to do with my life. Well before the summer began, I had come up with a dream, a dream to start my own school in my area. Well... for anyone that is a huge task... for someone that lacks motivation in doing anything, that is lazy and not the take charge kind of person... it's ridiculous to even dream such a thing... but I tell you what... I went to work at camp. and I had 1 friend draw me up a suggested floor plan, suggest materials to make it cheaper, offer to come head the building project and honestly... if nothing else... encourage me and help me realize... I've got a good network, I won't be on my own. I came here... I've seen how it's going, how it started... I've realized... yeah it's going to take work, obviously... but I really think it's possible... I've faced the students... and broke down in prayer so many times this summer... just to say, "Lord, if it's just me today, I'm not going to make it. Thank you for giving me the strength to face today." I've said as I look to the future. "Lord, This is going to be an incredibly challenging work I have set ahead, come with me, because I can't do it alone." and I feel completely at peace knowing, that He's right there beside me. Giving me the friends I need, the networks that I need, and He'll continue to take care of everything, from staff, to finance, to the legalities and beyond...

Moral of my tale??? Never be afraid to dream big... I've seen 1 person change the life of many because she had the dream to raise money to build schools... You've heard stories maybe even seen it first hand someone that had a dream to build churches or schools and you've seen how many lives they've changed... If your dream isn't impossible... It's not big enough. If you want to make a difference to someone... Figure out what you really want to help them with, and do it. I wanted to give people hope that there is something better. that there is someone to help, someone to be with them through everything. I've figured out that the best way I can help them... is to teach them. Whats your goal??? Is it something you will need to lean on Christ every moment to complete??? If not... start dreaming bigger. Because half the blessing is knowing Christ brought you through. I know I haven't been through much, but I've been through enough to know that when God is my strength... there's no better blessing.

Lord, thank you for bringing me through so many trials this summer to help me realize what an incredible blessing it is to know that it was by your strength alone that I can keep moving forward.