So as of Saturday January 11, 2014 I have decided to enter into a new relationship. I've got a new boyfriend guys!!! And just wait, it gets better... I wrote Him a poem awhile back...

Can't get Him off my mind.
He's all I think about...Every song I hear reminds me of Him...
He saved my life and I can never repay him...I'm in love and I don't know what to do....
♥ Jesus you are my Prince Charming ♥

I got the best Man in the whole entire Universe!!! I dare you to try and find one better ;) So, for some of you that know me, I know your probably thinking, "uh oh, she's gone off the deep end again." I guess your probably right, I have a tendency to go from 1 extreme to the other sometimes. But Him and I had a good talk tonight. I guess it started with me venting, journaling, you know how that goes. You start writing and it just keeps getting deeper, pretty soon your not just saying I'm sorry I spilt the milk, soon your realizing you also left the fridge door open, the cheese is moldy and your crying over spilt milk, pretty soon you realize everything you thought was history, is ruining your present. Well I told Him I need a boyfriend, I asked Him if He knew any good ones,  He said you've got me. I told Him yeah I know I've got you, I'm not alone, I've got my best friend on my side and everything. But I don't have someone to talk to about stuff that matters. Someone to challenge me. Someone to encourage me to be better. Someone to look forward to seeing and hearing from everyday. Someone to spend time with just the 2 of us doing something or just talking. Someone to work with. Someone to give me a hug when I'm having a rough day. You've got me. Ok, Ok, your right. I don't need someone, I've got you. The best friend a girl could ever ask for. But I can't really take you places, show you off, tell everyone that hey, I'm in a relationship with the coolest, bestest guy in the world. Why not??? Well cause it doesn't work that way. How does it not work that way??? I made that way!!! Really Kimmy??? I want to talk to you about everything. I want to tell you the truths about life. I want to challenge you to become better. To take my strengths and make them yours. To teach you, To love you. I want time with you. I want you to take me with you places. I want you to show me off. I want to be the one you come to for a hug at the end of the day. I want to be the one that solves all your problems, I want to be the one that wishes you a good morning. I want you to look forward to seeing me each day. I want to work with you. I want to be your partner. I want so much Kimmy. Can I be your coolest, bestest guy??? Well... How can you say no to that??? <3 How can you argue with that??? I told Him yes!!! 

Ok, so now you think I'm crazy, that I don't understand. That I can't shut everyone out with the excuse that I'm in a relationship with God. But here's the deal we made. 1 year. For 1 year it's going to be Him and I. Every morning I get to wake up and read a message from Him. Every day I get to learn more about Him and how we can make a life together. For 1 year I'm going to make extra time so we can grow a relationship. For 1 year I'm going to trust him with all my heart. I'm going to talk to Him, He's going to challenge me to think deeper, to think clearer. We're a team. We're going to learn all we can, and grow so much. But it won't stop there. We've made this deal for 1 year, But I expect it to last a life time. With our arrangement we've got a bit of a funny relationship really... because here's the part that some of you are probably wondering about... Is Kimmy going crazy??? Is she saying she's going to be the crazy cat lady??? The Jesus Freak??? Well... yeah, I guess I'm kind of saying that. But remember I said, "I'm going to trust Him with all my heart"??? Well that means it's His. And honestly thats the way it should be. We should all give up all claims of freedom of our heart, our soul, and our mind. But if He has it, that means Kimmy doesn't say who gets in or out. That means if He wants to give it to someone and let someone else join our relationship, thats His choice. I'm asking Him to let me have 1 year to cultivate this relationship, to build it so strong that it will last forever. That we become so set in our ways that no one can destroy the relationship no matter how hard they try. But ultimately, I'm giving it to Him. No matter what I'm in a relationship with God. Not just a best friend relationship, we're moving into a serious marriage relationship. A partnership to get us through everything. A combination of missions. Whatever happens, I'm putting Him in charge. He holds my heart. And by His grace This will be the first of many best years of my life <3 <3 <3