Well Summer Sales Conference II is coming, which means a commitment of 40 Demos in 2 weeks... to make matters worse, It's the first week I've had commitments not related to work... Cousin's getting married... and don't get me wrong... thats not a bad thing at all!!! I'm sooo happy for her and I'm so excited to be a part of that. Shoot... I need to work on my speech for that... (No I'm not maid of honour thank goodness... but she wants me to say something... so alas... public speaking it must be... she's lucky she's my favouritest 3rd Cousin that Lives in Calgary and teaches... ;) ) Anyways... my point is that it's going to be a busy week... getting the dress altered, rehearsal, bachelorette party, Rehearsal, Getting my speech figured out... (I'm definitely attempting to plan it this time... None of my last minute speeches turn out very good... not at weddings...), helping with my part of the decorating, the wedding, have a couple friends I want to visit since it's my 1 week off, office work free... So I'm planning those trips around demos... It's going to be a week of busyness thats for sure... The week after??? Well... I head back, do more demos for 2 days, 3 days of running training, interviews, another day or 2 dedicated to demos... and hopefully I can squeeze 40 demos into those 2 weeks around interviews, training, wedding business, and still have time to see the people I need to see.
During the next couple weeks you might get alot more posts about goals, dreams, plans, work, etc... Thats what these next 2 weeks with Vector are all about. They're about making goals, dreaming big, expecting the unexpected. It's about growing to become a better you. It's funny, they tell you to reach for the stars... but if you don't reach it, they focus on what you've learned, who you've become. Reaching for the stars isn't about catching a star... it's not about missing and hitting the moon... It's about growing, never giving up and becoming a better version of yourself.

You know writing these blogs has probably been the best thing I could have done in these past couple weeks... I've been discouraged... barely making it through. Don't get me wrong, I'm not having a mental breakdown or anything, life is still pretty decent. But I've had a terrible run of bad luck. It seems no matter what I do everything just slowly falls apart. I'm a dreamer, and I won't lie, I'm not great at being the achiever. I dream big, I just haven't figured out how to reach those dreams. My faith in my dreams is slowly fading. It feels like I move 1 step forward and 10 steps back. I've asked myself... I've asked God countless times in the past few weeks/months what I need to do... Everyone around me has a million ideas of what I need to be doing. Some of them are pretty darn good plans. But more often I find myself listening to their suggestions and asking... "is this really it..." Sometimes I feel like Pocahontas, when she's talking to her father tell her what her destiny is... The song "Just around the River Bend" resonates pretty well... should I choose the smoothest course? Just fall in line and take the first option available? For the record,  there's nothing wrong with the smoothest course... and maybe thats the path I need to take, the one that leads to patience waiting for greatness to come... But then again I've never been very skilled in settling for good... I strive for perfection and greatness... Go big or go home... Right now I seem stuck at home... cause going big just isn't working.
But here's why the blogs have been helpful to me. Hopefully you guys are learning something, hopefully I'm giving you something to think about... but it's only good if you do something about it. I know I've been learning alot. Partly through spirit of Vector, growing individuals professionally, financially, and personally.  Partly through Ramit Sethi and his words of wisdom through a few of his programs that he runs. But I think no matter how much I read, how much I learn... unless I'm doing something about it it's not going to be any use. I'm still struggling with how exactly to put it into action, but I'm doing that in a couple ways.
1. Through writing... 1 post per week was about committing to something and following through, about building skills and building myself.  I've also discovered it's helping to keep me shut out from the world. Really I've been doing pretty good with that actually, but it gives me a moment to reflect on what I'm learning, and share it with the world.
2nd, I'm doing that through beading... strange thing to put my "dreams & goals" into action I know... but it's super relaxing. I have a goal in mind, my goal is that someday I'll have enough finished projects earrings, keychains, necklaces, etc, to have a table at a farmers market and sell it. This I'm doing while I veg out and take some much needed Kimmy time. But because I have a goal in mind, it's not just wasted TV time, it's not just wasted Chill time... it's something I rather enjoy doing and it's giving me some much needed me time, while still working towards a goal of becoming a crafting extraordinaire. I also have a friend or 2 that I'm going make join me at the farmer's market... my dearest friend who's recently started beading is becoming quite stellar... honestly she's finished 3 times as many... (well... I don't know if I actually finished any more than 1... so probably alot more than 3 times...) projects as I ever did with the bead loom anyways.
3. I'm just going to keep moving... Not going very quick... I just lack the inspiration, direction, and passion to put my heart and soul into anything at the moment... It's hard knowing that when I do it all falls apart... I'm still working on momentum... but it's coming. and this push week starting on the 6th is going to be a huge test of that motivation & momentum... My goals for the push week... 40 Demos, $30,000 Honestly it's an absolutely huge goal... but here's why I chose it... the general # of demos is 40 demos for push week... that is what we encourage everyone to do. and with my coming 2 weeks... thats plenty... but the usual goal for that is $10K, so I'm tripling my sales goal and sticking with the 40 Demos... I'm going for as many demos as I can, at this point I think 40  is good... we'll see if I can raise it by the end of week 1... Cross my fingers, say a huge prayer, etc... for the Sales goal... 10K only gets me 3K in profit, and I know... 3K in 2 weeks is amazing... more than I've made all summer... but it's not something I can look at and say Yes thats what I'm going to do... but if I can say my goal is 30K, thats something I can get behind... @ 30K in sales... I hit my next 2 promotions... I'm making alot more for every sale, and the best part... I move on debt free... So is it realistic??? well... a couple reps last year sold over 20K and the record currently stands at almost 50K... Yes, the 50K record is selling a couple Cutco kitchens and alot of our biggest knife sets with alot of gadgets...  I really just don't have the contacts for that many huge sales... but if 1 rep, with 2 busy part time jobs, can still figure out a way to sell 20K, and hit almost 40 Demos... I have a pretty decent shot @ 30K, but you know what... if I don't hit that goal. hopefully I've hit my 40 Demo goal... but here's the best part... if I don't hit either of those goals... but I did the best that I can... I've still put in alot of hard work, I've failed, and I get one more chance to figure out how to pick myself up, move forward, and never give up. I've had 1 more chance to prove to myself that I'm absolutely crazy, stupid, and driven. That I believe in amazing things, and it may not serve much at hitting any goals of where I want to be... But I've made the commitment and I'm going to see it through. I'm going to keep my priorities straight, I'm going to give it all I've got. and if I fail... then I fail, and I find my next thing to work towards, and I wait for my luck to change...

So do I choose the smoothest course???
Or do I keep pushing forward finding out whats waiting for me just around the river bend???